I had just put my phone aside and decided I needed to catch up on some reading when I started hearing it constantly ring. It wasn’t a call. Just messages I told myself as I got back to what I was doing. It continued for a few more minutes when I thought may be I should just take a look at it anyways. (I’m no phone addict but you understand how hard it is to stay away from it during the day when your on Facebook, Instagram and the rest)
As I sat reading the messages my mind started just going around places. I was concerned. It was an old friend “K”. She was upset. It had been a while since we last spoke. (You see I’m married which means most of my friends now have made assumptions that I am busy so don’t approach me when they need to talk 🙂 Also having no friends here in Tampa equals me relying on technology to keep in touch with people)
Anyways I was glad she messaged me. As she sat typing about things it just made me wonder why would someone as strong as her suddenly be so weak. I mean I know we all have breaking points but I just assumed she had dealt with insane amounts of pain already and anything from here should have been a smooth ride but yes I was wrong.
Having lost a friend not too long ago I wasn’t ready to lose another. I tried telling her all I could to cheer her and to a certain extent I know I was doing an okay job as she spoke and told me she felt much better. smiled. But honestly it just scared me as she kept telling me how shes been hurt over and over again and she din’t see why she needed to live.
I do understand every word she said but I wish I could somehow make her understand that she is special and doesn’t need to be judged or treated the way she is. We all have a right to live the way we want and make choices, be able to trust and love. Don’t we?
I just hope that no one gets to this stage in life where they are being pushed to have such thoughts.
What if at that point all they needed was someone to trust or someone who would just nod and listen to them speak??
What if you were just a little late?
What do you do if you understand what one feels but anything you say or do would still not be enough?
What exactly does one do????
PS. No matter what happens just know you are special and you do not need to take shit from people.