After seeing a post about how Yoga is a full body, mind and soul workout it reminded me of how much I’ve been struggling with doing it. For someone who very comfortably could go into a lunge and do the warrior pose or the tree pose with ease I could barely keep myself stable through a class of what was “gentle” Yoga. My legs shook. It’s been a little over 10 months since I practiced yoga. I’ve done the occasional surya namaskar or stretches but nothing more than that. I spent the hour in class conscious of how I looked. The mirrors around me weren’t helping me either. I was too busy telling myself to breathe and that everyone else doing the poses around me were in their own world and are probably not looking at my legs shaking, me losing my balance or the sweat dripping off my forehead. While the session was supposed to make me calmer, it was one of the most brutal workouts I’ve done in a while. The spin class or Zumba was nothing in comparison. It tells me how much work I need to do. I can fix things on the outside. it’s a lot harder to fix what goes on in the head but here’s to practicing it more often, breathing deeper and finding focus.